Thursday, April 07, 2005

I woke up to my horror today as i checked my ticked...

the first thing i saw was chelsea and my eyes instead of wanting to close, opened as wide as it could be...

I TORE THE WRONG TICKET... THE TICKET I TORE WAS MY WINNING ONE... AND THE ONE IM HOLDING NOW IS THE LOSING ONE...

there goes my $35 dollars...

I initially planned to give $20 for tithes, then clear my debts for cg fund.. but i guess... i shant clear any...

i fell that im really fucking unlucky these days...

liverpool, had a great chance to win... and i didnt...

WAT THE HELL IS THE WORLD COMING TO!??!?????!??!?!?!?

OR MORE LIKE... R THE GODS EVEN THER, IM SORRY FOR QUESTIONING BUT... IT ALL JUST SEEMS UNFAIR...

y am i so unlucky...

and FUCK U SATAN... i hate u... crappy piece of shit...

i guess... ranting wont do the trick this time... it wont help clear up my anger... my frustration inside me...

i guess... the only thing is to either get money from my parents... or to bet more... however im left with $12 only...

i kinda decided not to pay tithes for this month... coz my blessing just became a curse... so ill repay curse too...

sheesh... i wanted to wake up today damn happy... coz i won... fuck... and to clear all my stress... and Lord... this is the 3rd time i even woke up feeling like FUCK THIS WORLD!...

guess it all doesnt matter now...

Mei mei... ur bdae comin up soon worx... wat u want ar??

perhaps... ah... pondering on whether to carry on with life or to take it.. u noe... if the world don seem fair... there just isnt any reason living... esp when u get curses all the time... i still havent seen a great blessing but only GREAT FUCKING CURSES...

hell to u... fuck this world...

re-emphasizing my song...
give me the truth...
to decide my path...
give me the truth...
coz i cannot take it anymore...

guess blaming anyone wont matter... now i only got 1 other option left... to quickly do the dam APN website asap so that i will be able to reap the profits there... this time no tearing involved...

fuck u...

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