Wednesday, April 06, 2005
OK... ytd i got back too late... was out till around 1050 when i came back... haiz... so couldnt blog lar... thats one reason... but the main reason is bcoz i was using the laptop and i couldnt even go to this page - the create post one...
anways... i was making jelly with erika at her hse... since we were both free... so yea... went to shop and save to buy the mixed fruits, jelly powder... was on the way back that i saw a runned over rat with its intestines on the road itself... crap... so sick... so yea, the fruits were a lil too much... or shld i say... way too much... haha... instead of eating proper jelly... haha... we mostly ate fruits... lolx... anyways... it was all good...
we boiled the water, put the jelly powder inside... then we didnt have jelly moulds... so we used cups instead... put the fruits in cups and poured the bolied jelly paste inside...
we were washing the pot... and eew... shld have taken a pic of ----- jelly mucus... crap... was so sick man... crap man... y am i seeing so much of sick stuff ytd... haiz... anyway... we were waiting for the jelly to set, decided to watch some funny vids on the com... and we were laughing our heads off... oh well...
jelly set... ate it.. was great man... yea... felt so full after eating that much jelly... too bad yi ping couldnt come... haiz... homework... sian lar... jellys great *tempting u* haha... ya well... so erika had to sleep... chionged back home on my bike...
then was watching this dam funny and dam nice chinese swordsman show... u noe the xiao shiyilang one... ya... then i wanted to torn the nite to watch the liverpool match end in a 2-1 score... however... my dad asked me to take a nap... and guess wat... the nap turned out to become sleep... woke up at 745am and i put my hand on my head in distress... crap... woke up wayyyy toooo late... arggh... really pissed... don u hate it when u really miss watching the match or something that u like... then its like... when u sleep and u wake up with a distressful thought, dont u feel like it was a bad sleep... well yea... thats how im feeling now... and worse still... pools closed last nite... when i wanted in for liverpool... which would have given me like profit of $10... crap......................
so yea... i decided that i wont take a nap tonite... ill torn tonite... prehaps just a nap in the mid afternoon like that...
anyways... last nite... my aunt was in delievery... yahoo!!! im gonna visit her later man... hehe... perhaps ill be the first one... yea... after so long... haha... this baby is really gonna be my brother? somewhat... anyways... i treat sam like a brother too.. so probably... these 2 will be my closest cousins... hope i can really relate well with them... well wat am i talking...
RANT
dont u hate it when u spent long hours of ur bloody time working on a project or something that you really have the passion for?
dont u hate it when the comments ppl give are sorta sarcastic...
dont u hate it when u spent like 8 hours doin something and ppl just come up with a rather sarcastic
"oh, its nice"
or
"wow" perhaps wow is alright...
but "its nice" kinda plain rite... i mean... i picture says a thousand words... and only a few ppl have really given me their full comments... its just like ppl just look at it... feeling jealous and just says its nice... crap man...
i really hate ppl who don fucking give their all when someone really hints that they want their attention there... it almost seems like u r dying for eternity there... lying in the cold wet grass... rotting away... dying from hunger.. when u really cannot move... it feels so isolated...
i really wonder wat kind of ppl r aruond me... would they make good friends or just aquaintences... some of which i can really rely on... some of which is better to just throw away and not waste ur time being their friend when they don even be a friend to u...
it all just feels bad... *im dying* *hate most of the world*
---ENDZ RANT---
so got this heap of rant off my shoulders... i really ponder abt it... and perhaps i shld look back at the notes of Rev Dr Ulf Ekman on friendship... and really decide and choose my frens from now on... guess its kinda hard to do anything now.. coz im really gonna get sick soon... can feel the flu rushing to infect me soon...
besides... it all seems so hard to comprehend... everything around us... well.. basically i think that ppl don really think enuf... thats wat the world is comin too... and ppl who don tink enuf are ppl with really low IQs... don u tink so... u don tink and wonder the mysteries of this world... and thinking that wat they noe is sufficient... well... thinking is really part of my life... perhaps i tink too much, well thats alright... perhaps i got a really high IQ and thus really need more time to dig myself in the libraries... its prolly gonna be good that way... so i tot to myself... perhaps i shld do something useful now... and i tink i shld... john bevere's drawing near book is still unread in my hands... and Ulf Ekman's Beloved and Hated Israel is also untouched...
guess im pretty guilty... coz id rather read more of maths and scientific books than these... well... i gotta get down to reading them... perhaps i shld start thinking abt philosophy and religion... perhaps... my calling is really true... tho not confirmed yet...
just like benjamin... i really wonder if anyone reads blogs or why im even getting down to writting them... i guess i kinda got the answer... its just that we need to relieve stress... by ranting here and putting ur thoughts on the blog... u tend to think more and really get down to knowing the answer to everything... and it seems that everything is more organized by doin so... i tend to tink abt it too... and i guess i have found the answer... so perhaps u don need to do so much thinking.. but just try to understand it.. its part of thinking too...
Think therefore u live
God says " I think, therefore I am"
Thinking is part of everyone's life
Understanding is part of thinking...
So why cant ppl understand u more?
Why cant ppl be more understanding?
guess ppl are lazy to the extent of that...
`~~Im thinking Im thinking Im thinking.............
- I contemplated at 9:37 am
