Sunday, May 15, 2005
have u ever felt this way before...
if someone asked u to go out with him/her to do something...
then u push aside and reject all ur other plans that could happen on that day... then suddenly that person tells u that he cannot make it...
wouldnt u feel dam pissed? well this is just too much for me to take... i hate it when time is wasted like that... i would love to kill that person but the law forbids so... i would love to hate the person... but its spiritual sin... wat can i do... pay them back with their own medicine? nah
don tink that will be helped... as God says that we must repay good for evil...
fuck that... y is the world so unfair...
then i wasted my whole day away... being saturday without any cell... and it was the best day to go out... fuck that...
then came sunday... fuck... it happened to me again... this guy... said he was comin...
and......
he went for a chalet... how fucked up can that get...
i just don understand y ppl r like that...
Y cant ppl be more
considerate
understanding
thoughful
y cant they just spare a thought for ppl's feelings and wat u could do with wat u have said... this year i have experienced so much of it...
oh well...
i guess... im a bad person... coz ur capacity to withstand this kind of stuff reflects how something something something...
guess i had too much beer...
ah well... wat can i do... ppl act so childishly... just coz they want everything they want...
ppl be nice to u when they want something... then they dao u when u ask them for something, a favour, let alone talking...
then i miss this group of frens i can say i once had... then they sorta?? miss me too?? then im the one since im free... trying my best to arrange some time to meet them... then they all fucking dao... sit there with their bloody buttocks glued to the chair dunno doin wat... hands cannot type issit... God give u hands for wat one... masturbate ar?!!! fuck lar...
im the one putting all the effort and u r the one spoiling it all... FUCK!!!
tink peeps... the world is ending... hope u all die and go hell... then i can be there to stick my trident in ur head...
then theres 1 situation, would u be spared of torture if u r too evil..???
another situation whereby - after God defeats satan... wat will happen? all live in peace? or will there be another lucifer?
guess my IQ is just too high... have u ever wondered why u must be in this body of urs and not theirs... would u want to even trade bodies with someone...???
lets go back to the point... y r ppl so ##$&(#*$&(^$#*&(^$*#&^$(*&^($*&^)(*@&#)*#&^)@&#)#&*^!!!!
grrr
tmrs plans will be
-morning-
*cycling
*go out
*go make my spark gun
-afternoon-
*still out
*pool
u tink ppl will spoil my plans tmr? take ur vote... im sick and tired of living this life... ill just live for God... the rest FUCK OFF!!...
only close frens allowed...
well... how close would u consider close?
-jz?
-ben?
-neighbours
jz and ben r the closest i can tink off right now? it sucks dont it... lifes full of shit... so it stinks...
wtf... im crazy... perhaps i shld really turn to smoking.. and alcohol...
someone persuade me!!!
right fuck off...
im mad now... i dunno y im saying this...
but...
it seems like my life is ruined...
perhaps i shld just change cell... somewhere nearer...
perhaps i shld just break off all my past and live a new one...
wat shld i do...
-confused-
*dignified*
(hatred)
[fucked]
- I contemplated at 11:10 pm
