Tuesday, October 18, 2005
recently, lifes been really boring...
i cant seem to get a hold of myself...
its not long that im gonna break lose...
im not gonna bother blogging abt the days b4...
it all seems that i need restructuring of my mind, body, soul...
dream dreams...
live it all out to the fullest...
the potential is in u...
so chase that dream while ur still young...
ve got 1 dream that is O!
so tangible now..
its just that my flesh is hesitating...
the leader just invited me to jam with them...
hang out a bit...
do shit and stuff...
hopefully i can find that kind of belonging...
its great isnt it to have places like home...
where u would feel so nice just spending time with "family members"
just like city harvest church...
being around my cell group ppl just makes me feel so comfortable...
wats more..
being in the house of God...
gives me peace in my heart...
a peace that no one else will be able to experience but there...
this reminds me of GOAL! - the show that i watched with erika...
when i saw the relationship between Gavin Harris and Santiago Munez...
wouldnt it feel great...
to score a goal...
or to provide a goal for ur partner...
sharing the glory man...
i always dreamt of that...
perhaps...
its just me and yanguang that i hope for?
or possibly, ian in addition too...
oh scoring goals is so great...
but the best part is helping another person to do so...
thats so erm...
cant find the right word to use...
guess im rusty with my english too..
or maybe im just too lazy to think...
i feel these days...
im easily moody...
yet easily cheerful...
seeking dreams...
yet wanting desires...
my cfhyp...
im still waiting for the right time to pop the qn...
its gonna take a lot of guts too...
pursuing another dream of breaking too...
found the right ppl to teach me already...
yet again...
this period of time are my extremes...
i must juggle between the things i want thats coming true...
and the things that i wished did not happen...
unforseen circumstances...
i miss my frens...
tho sick but at least...
they make me feel happy...
just being around them seems like errr earth???
i cant say heaven...
coz its reserved for church...
:P *grins*
thats abt it...
i shant take up too much of my time...
got plans to catch dreams now...
DREAM ALL U WANT...
JUST LIVE IT OUT...
anyways...
today...
went to prata hse with hu lala...
he burnt his tongue...
wahahahaa..
then... we watched sharkboy and lavagal...
inspiring story...
with just 1 or 2 little things to learn from it...
wonder y i think so much nowadays...
analysing...
anyways...
it was a crap show...
lots of laughs abt stupid things...
that would only trick small children...
then... went to play bball...
both of us... shag until like sai like that...
- I contemplated at 8:40 pm
