Saturday, December 03, 2005
ok...
this is so sidetracked...
but its bothering me a lot...
susan...
is really killing me...
cant u all tell that im a pretty straight forward guy?
someone who 99% of the time...
wont change his mind...
no matter how u ask him to..
when his will power is so strong...
and focused on something...
he will complete it...
or do it...
well then...
why r u still pestering me...
let me tell u wat happened first...
i recieved a warning letter from my sch...
coz i missed 6 hours of c programming...
and my mother got upset...
coz she thought...
and rather so much convinced...
that its absent without reason.. that kind...
so...
she was screaming her head off at me...
tho i trying my best to convince her...
i noe the trick to convince her...
but its bad...
its a double edged sword...
i would get the upper hand...
yet...
it would mean criticisms to her...
in very indirect..
and twisting manner...
toward wat she says...
yet again...
my dad noes that i have not missed the lessons without reason..
coz...
he was with me when we got the mc..
so it just means absent from class..
not absent without a reason...
then again...
i felt so moved..
when my dad actually went to sch to clear things out..
when it all seems hes trying to clear things up..
scolding the sch..
in which...
the words he used were so RIGHT...
and its like...
i could cry...
but naturally...
guys don cry...
i was breaking down..
my dad has helped me so much...
the person who teng me the most..
and the person who i teng the most...
so ya...
he talked to my mother and then...
everything was ok..
i guess...
anyways...
heres it..
susan called me that day...
asked me if i was free to go for the dedication prayer..
of the expo...
for our church..
on wed nite...
in which..
i just got scolded...
and so..
my mother's mood is very down..
and if i tell her
1) its at expo
< too far >
2) its at nite
< wth? >
sure... something like this will come out...
kaoz...
then...
she keep pestering me...
saying...
wa lao...
u 17 yrs old liao..
still don have this kind of freedom...
so u saying u have a lot of freedom lar..
so u saying u better than me lar..
well...
look at urself and look at me...
im the only child..
u arent...
u noe wat?
they r very protective of me..
and i thank God for that...
u all have to share ur parent's love...
whereas i get it all...
u get to share the protection between ur parents..
i get every protection i can get...
i cannot even buy a bike last time...
they wouldnt even let me..
now u would actually noe how i feel abt this...
pester me some more...
she still pester me...
then...
i got really frustrated...
really agitated...
i didnt want to spiritually kill someone again...
i hated jia xin for a time being...
blocked her on msn...
don reply to her sms...
calls...
only important ones..
then ill pick up...
twice only..
i picked up during that 4 months period..
i think...
something like that..
i didnt talk to her during cell..
don even wanna look that way..
i don wanna hate someone again..
i got straight to the point...
stop pestering me...
don make me hate u like i hated jia xin...
so she stopped..
guess that hit her heart...
she didnt talk to me...
but i guess thruths always hurts :(
the end... how like it?
i felt better...
HOW BOUT U!!! ~
- I contemplated at 10:17 am
