Wednesday, January 11, 2006
tinking about that sms that she sent..
the three words,
"end it lor"
pierced my heart...
pretty bad...
these words..
could it have meant something else..
i hope it was...
thinking more abt these words...
i tried studying like she asked me to...
i cant...
kept thinking about it...
everytime i closed my eyes..
tears came out...
streaking down my cheeks...
while i was bathing...
i started punching the wall..
until it was all red...
my knuckles were red...
it seemed as tho,
my knuckles were trying to burst its way out of the skin...
then...
the shower spraying thing...
fell from the latch..
and hit my head...
crap..
itte...
pain ar...
was it a wake up call?
or was it...
to make me even more depressed..
i guess u wont be seeing this till maybe 24++ hours later...
maybe even after a few days..
then u would read this...
by then...
everything might have been settled..
i just cant stand it..
y r u hiding things from me..
my imagination..
is far bigger than wat u think...
by keeping things from me...
it really freaks me out...
im begging of u to tell me...
at least ur dark secret..
ive gotten over..
but...
please spare me...
and i don want to end this relationship either...
- I contemplated at 8:51 pm
