Wednesday, March 15, 2006
a recent spite of events...
left me hurting..
but i aint gonna talk abt it..
coz i don wanna remember anything bad..
about our relationship..
i just wanna forget the bad times..
and remember all the good times..
well..
er ya..
the staircase...
3 times..
first time was pretty good..
wet wet..
lol..
nice..
haha..
oh well..
it was just so nice..
hmmm..
well..
justin is not considered my friend le..
so ya..
just an acquaintence..
hmmm..
im sorry i had to scold..
or at least..
i didnt think it was a scolding..
haiz..
i noe its not ur fault..
but justin's..
but the fact is..
u r opening a chance..
for things to happen...
same with victor...
maybe...
i need to control more le..
now i noe how my parents feel when they scold me..
their heart really hurts..
i guess..
i shld be a better person to them...
haiz..
and to my darling..
and to God..
well...
the movie was nice..
ilhammi was there too..
hmmm..
lol..
i got turned on..
coz...
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lol..
hmmm...
everything was nice lar..
nelson and cash were there too..
and i noe we had a damn good time together..
joking and all that..
yupp..
then..
at nite..
she crushed my heart..
a date..
planned for for very long..
she gave it to her friends..
i kept thinking..
thinking a lot..
i couldnt sleep..
till 5.44 am..
i wrote a letter..
to get everything off my chest..
and now im so fucking tired..
managed to sleep at 6..
until 9..
at that time..
i just thought of 1 song..
by coldplay..
what if..
so here r the lyrics..
coldplay - what if
What if there was no lie
Nothing wrong, nothing right
What if there was no time
And no reason, or rhyme
What if you should decide
That you don't want me there by your side
That you don't want me there in your life
What if I got it wrong
And no poem or song
Could put right what I got wrong
Or make you feel I belong
What if you should decide
That you don't want me there by your side
That you don't want me there in your life
Ooh ooh-ooh, that's right
Let's take a breath, jump over the side
Ooh ooh-ooh, that's right
How can you know it, if you don't even try
Ooh ooh-ooh, that's right
Every step that you take
Could be your biggest mistake
It could bend or it could break
That's the risk that you take
What if you should decide
That you don't want me there by your side
That you don't want me there in your life
Ooh ooh-ooh, that's right
Let's take a breath, jump over the side
Ooh ooh-ooh, that's right
How can you know when you don't even try
Ooh ooh-ooh, that's right
Ohhh - Ooh ooh-ooh, that's right,
Let's take a breath, jump over the side.
Ooh ooh-ooh, that's right,
You know that darkness always turns into light.
Ooh-ooh, that's right
i love you...
loved you all along..
and only you i shall love..
on this earth...
you mean everything to me..
i really hope ur mind will change..
- I contemplated at 10:21 am
