Sunday, November 19, 2006
i actually wanted to dedicate the nxt post to the cell group. but i guess. im too depressed to do so now. just feel like ranting my guts out.
i don deserve to be insulted criticised at like that. whatever it is. u wanna wack me. tell me. ill show myself to u. im really tired of living in this world.
so damn fucking tired. the only person that i wanna think abt now is God. if only i can experience God's love fully. like a real new born christian. haiz. thats if God wants to protect me from all danger and harm.
i really don feel like studying. i dunno y im wasting my time. i dunno if i shld carry on with life or death.
Oh Lord. wat shld i do. enlighten me with your word tonight please.
if i shld die.
i owe joshua 40 bucks
i owe michelle 10 bucks
i owe natalie 75 bucks
i owe nick 54 bucks - 15 for mos
trevor owes me 30 bucks
the rest of the money
give it to the church
whatever it is.
i thanks my god sister - cassandra
for always being there for me. trying to cheer me up and all that. haiz. miss you lots. i guess if i die soon. wont be able to get ur souvenier and eat ice cream with u.
i thank my other god sister - edith
we've been so close. but dunno wat happened. don think i can fulfil ur christmas wish if i died early.
i thanks wenshan. for being one of the closest person to me. really like a mother to me.
watever. i cant be bothered with the rest. but i still thank a lot of ppl in my life.
- I contemplated at 10:02 pm
