Thursday, May 31, 2007
EMERGE 2007 IS TOTALLY AWESOME. except for my throat, which many have said that its most probably a case of throat infection. nonetheless, the screaming for God and His presence to come today was worth it. session 1 was on shamgar. and like what pastor said, no matter how many times you are going to listen to the same message, open your heart cause there might be an impact or something you can at least learn from it. i did that, and i learnt 1 thing. things may not come in a huge overload. sometimes you just gotta work yourself up with small things. like how shamgar killed 1 soldier everyday till he reached 600. im gonna take each day step by step as how God plans my path out. session 2 was awesome as well. just that i was not really concentrating much. Sorry God. but i learnt a bit from it. and that was how and when you shld seek for your encounter. how you should lay your life down. God can overlook sin and be patient with you, as long as you have your spiritual hunger and thirst for him and your love for him. solitude yourself and seek him out.
God spoke to me in a rather cool way.
picture this. you are alone in the bus. and the crowds around you are discussing in their cliques. your mind fades away, like how the voices tend to fade away, and how you close up the surroundings and become more concentrated on the inside. then your mind starts to lose its senses. and you start to go into a daze. suddenly, God appears and is right in front of you. then He says to me "Wake up Jeremiah!". and he follows that sentence up with 2 light slaps.
"yea yea? wats up Lord?"
"let me ask you. you have 1 wish, and i would grant it. what will you wish for?"
"not my will but yours be done."
"in what way"
"let the whole earth be saved. let the people cry out and hunger for you."
"alright, and how?"
"use me o soverign Lord. for your servant is willing"
"consider that done"
"mould me, into a better person, to be more like You, so that i can be a represenation of You and Your love being shown to wherever you will send me."
"mhmm, anything else?"
"yes Lord, lots more, haha sorry for overloading 1 wish."
"nah its alright"
"i want to carry your anoiting wherever i go, humble me, change me"
(the rest i cant really remember. i was supposedly supposed to be half dead then.)
but then. bish. all of a sudden. God's gone. but i knew. if i could. i wanted to hold Him, and never let Him go.
sighs. Lord, please come back, so that i can hold You and never let You go.
Amen
someone was looking at me quite a couple of times today. is it a new hope? or being sensitive?
- I contemplated at 11:57 pm
