Friday, July 13, 2007
have you ever felt like everything is fading away,
all your aims,
your ambitions,
your friends,
things that you treasure?
then slowly it seems as if life fades away.
theres no more meaning in living this life,
but only what seems to be an eternal slumber.
trapped in a room of darkness,
with no sense of navigation,
and you worry so much,
if the next step you take,
will be your downfall.
light doesnt seem to exist anymore,
in this hidden life of yours,
which was once a bright joy,
is being eaten by the ominousity.
you wish to do something,
however you just can't seem to,
everything is in your way,
yet there is no one to help you,
obstacles are blocking,
but using your own strength,
you can't push it aside.
and finally,
you give up.
everything inside me is dead;
my emotions,
my dreams,
my desires,
my wants,
they simply fade away,
as if they can never be met,
never be able to reach.
suicide thoughts flood my mind,
as i reminiscence my past.
Voidness,
emptyness.
Sorrow,
grief.
Depressed,
neglect.
Helpless,
useless.
an empty vessel,
is just empty,
theres nothing inside.
and soon,
it will just be thrown away,
thrown aside.
if only my life weren't as tough.
if only i had someone who could care for me,
if only i had someone to care for.
controversial some might say,
necessary should be the other question.
people start to not pay attention to you,
you seem to be non-existent.
and when that day comes,
what would happen?
would the world just crush you,
would you just submit to the darkness?
is there any more will in you!
stand up!
some may say,
easier said than done.
nothing else matters,
nothing else matters,
anymore.
save me from this eternal sorrow,
save me from this darkness,
bring me out of my misery,
i beg of someone.
Here comes a cold
Break out the winter clothes
And find a love to call your own
You - enter you
Your cheeks a shade of pink
And the rest of you in powder blue
Who knows what will be
But I'll make you this guarantee
No way November will see our goodbye
When it comes to December it's obvious why
No one wants to be alone at Christmas time
In the dark, on the phone
You tell me the names of your brothers
And your favorite colors
I'm learning you
And when it snows again
We'll take a walk outside
And search the sky
Like children do
I'll say to you
No way November will see our goodbye
When it comes to December it's obvious why
No one wants to be alone at Christmas time
And come January we're frozen inside
Making new resolutions a hundred times
February, won't you be my valentine?
And we'll both be safe 'til St. Patrick's Day
We should take a ride tonight around the town
and look around at all the beautiful houses
something in the way that blue lights on a black night
can make you feel more
everybody, it seems to me, just wants to be
just like you and me
No one wants to be alone at Christmas time
Come January we're frozen inside
Making new resolutions a hundred times
February, won't you be my valentine?
And if our always is all that we gave
And we someday take that away
I'll be alright if it was just 'til St. Patrick's Day
- I contemplated at 7:28 pm
