Monday, July 02, 2007
work was quite jia lat yesterday. customers keep flowing in like nobody's business lar. then serve and serve until i can sweat lor. but it was fun lar. being busy once in a while kills the boredom that i frequently experience.
tian long, if you think all i care about is myself, then well, you noe my facade only. i shall leave it to you to find out for yourself. but i shall forgive people for saying those stuff. whatever shit i have gone through. i just forgive and get it by.
well heres the truth since i have bottled up so much of it. i don really like current church people, i wonder why it has become this way. people just don't understand me, something which i don't expect them to do. but still, some stuff shouldn't be said. well i admit that if i hurt darius im sorry. i only said that for fun cause you really failed my test, the passing mark was 30 only. you cannot guess properly haha.
but i noe a few ppl whom i treasure a lot. take for example, adrian, he knows that i really care about him. understand why i don't go for fellowship, but rather go and find adrian after service? well now the reason is out. but thats not the actual reason. thats for me to know and for you to find out.
ppl criticise me, slander me, spread rumors about me, bad mouth me. others dont care about me. others just say but no action. others just think "oh you are jerry and you are in church". some others just piss me off by saying unnecessary things that comes out by conclusion. they think im so shallow. more shallow than they think. i wont mention names. but its just rather bad to have these feelings. for all i want, i just want to change cell. get away and find true friends that care.
- I contemplated at 10:23 am
