Friday, August 17, 2007
on this very day,
i contemplate about the past 7 years of my life,
which i most vaguely remember as just being yesterday,
the rest are just as just vividly etched at the back of my mind.
these years,
have been long and gruelsome,
however as some of you see it,
its just the other way round.
friends,
yet "friends".
some are real,
some are theres,
some forgiven,
some forgotten.
the inner solemn,
the outer happiness,
the inner grief,
the outer joy,
the inner loneliness,
the outer society,
all seems contradictory.
have i just been decieveing myself?
this very year,
this very day,
of this quiet birthday of mine,
i stress to see who have been there,
and who have not,
who has remembered,
and others forgotten,
to whom has bothered,
and those that ignore.
to one,
we have drifted,
within just a matter of days,
we used to be close,
but now what has become of us.
the one i thought would have wished me,
the one i thought i dropped hints to,
yet did not quite bother about this very day.
the one whom ignored,
the one whom constantly hurt me,
yet i wholly forgive,
the fact that you have walked away,
i shall not persist,
i shall not follow,
i shall turn the other way.
the one that ignores,
are not remembered.
the one that doesnt know,
you are forgiven.
the one that forgets,
it depends on who you are.
on this very same day,
19 years ago.
i thank the Lord my creator,
for bringing me into this world.
tho i have suffered much,
he has chosen me,
even before i was born,
he has a plan for me,
not to hurt me,
not to bring me pain,
but to prosper me.
whatever these plans are,
i would follow.
friends are a gift from heaven.
friendship begets friendship.
this is a day,
to give and take.
and thus i end off with my wish counter
-tisa (5 mins before it) but i appreciate it
-joey jie (right on time) she scared me, but was very sweet. called me in the middle of my dota game and sang a birthday song. first time i heard her voice. and it was so sweet. became elated after that.
-my parents (after jie) cause she was singing song so they couldnt wish me on time. hahas.
-kevin and tony (during the dota game) cause we were playing dota duh
-michelle tay (after dota i alt tab and saw) thanks for remembering
-jia jun (in the middle of my sleep and my comp was on) thanks for remembering
-ephraim (chat in the middle of the night) hey happy birthday to you too!
-stephen (first sms)
-melanie (2nd) thanks for remembering
-eunice chong (3rd) thanks ar love ya lots sista
-michelle ma (4th) er okok thanks
-erika (noon) she came over wished me happy birthday and brought some tarts over from sweet secrets. love ya lots girl.
-nikki (sms dunno when) well, she smsed me and i tot it was to wish me happy birthday, but ya, she doesnt noe. so she asked me what to study for network tech. lol nontheless, she did wish me.
-gong chio sun nu (super early friendster comment and today) love ya lots (: i tricked her into believing that its not my birthday today for a while. well see the gong word. yea. xD
-margaret (friendster comment) well you remembered. tho its just a comment. its greatly appreciated. thanks a lot.
and that concludes it. 17 ppl.
that one wish,
changed my whole day,
that one sparkling hope,
i would seize,
i would never let go,
that simple wish,
was all i needed.
i'd kill,
i'd brave,
i'd do anything,
just to have you.
thanks for remembering.
and if the Lord permits,
we shall be together.
au revoir.
with lots of love.
jeremiah-lacerta
- I contemplated at 1:55 pm
